Current location:	Katy, Texas
Current mood:	satisfied
Current music:	Bubbly - Colbie Caillat
Entry tags:	katy, ojt, school, texas

Very :)
It's one in the morning. I'm sitting on the bed with the computer on my lap. Eating a bar of chocolate. I didn't eat rice for dinner. I had 9 pieces of chicken fries from Burger King, and a cup of root beer. I wonder how much calories it pumped in my system.

My hands are ugly. My palms are lined. They have these short, thin lines like scratches clawed by a cat. They're rough. And the veins from my arms travel all the way to my wrists and to the back of my hands. I touch them and they startle me with such protrusion

Why am I here? Why did I come here? Why did I travel for 24 hours over vast oceans amongst the clouds four months ago just to get here? Why did I risk graduation? Why did I leave the environment I had been so accustomed to?

Four years ago, I had so much fervor and so much idealism, I could've powered the lamplights in Roxas Blvd. My future was planned though not in details. But I planned. Like who I was going to be and where. Did I lose focus by uninvited distractions? Or did I allow interruptions to enter the scene?

Oh. Fuck sugar. I'm almost done with my chocolate. I think I better sleep. I'm getting hyper again.

Good night.

I'm happy, you know. Very. :) No regrets.